“Life becomes easier when you learn to accept an apology you never got”

We are all in different stages of blossoming.

Lately, I’ve been thinking a lot about the way we function with the weight of pain that we don’t even realize is there. We carry it around camouflaged as a badge of honor. And because it’s camouflaged, we can’t see it for what it is. It’s shit that is weighing us down, preventing us from moving forward.

What I mean is, if we have allowed something in our past to deplete who we are capable of being then we almost always are going to carry that level of self-confidence around, like a badge of dishonor. And people will eventually see that, they will be attracted to it. Which means no one will be around to pull you up and help you succeed because they like that you are down. Or they want to abuse you and diminish what’s left of you. Those people are the ones that you need to steer clear of. They usually look a lot like a slick talking wounded deer on the side of the road, but you pick it up and take it home anyway because it’s “cute”. And you nurse it back to health with all the tender, love and care that your heart can muster up, and then they kick you right in the teeth with those newly strong legs and leave you in pain.

Those people are the ones that you need to steer clear of. They usually look a lot like a slick talking wounded deer on the side of the road, but you pick it up and take it home anyway because it’s “cute”. And you nurse it back to health with all the tender, love and care that your heart can muster up, and then they kick you right in the teeth with those newly strong legs and leave you in pain.

I say all of this to say that, a broken person didn’t just wake up one day and decide they were broken. They were built into this person by one person or another, by one situation or another, or by all of them collectively. There is an empty bank in so many of us, and sometimes we wait around hoping that someone will walk by and submit payment toward their debts with “I’m sorry’s” that we feel like we are owed.

But the crappiest part is:
the longer you sit and wait for it,
the longer you sit and wait for it.

Instead of waiting maybe consider writing those debts off by accepting an apology that may never come. Because you may never receive them, but you must believe that they are there. You should forgive people for whatever wrong they have done to you and let it go. Then look in the mirror and apologize to yourself. Because you deserve that too.


Photo by Brigitte Tohm on Unsplash

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